Dad, now it’s your turn to listen to me. Don’t respond. Just listen.
I cannot look you in the eyes anymore. We cannot talk like we used to. I force the smile you see. While hiding the pain I feel.
I don’t trust you anymore. All because you lost your self control. All because you don’t know when to quit. Because you can’t say no.
I’ve told you before how I feel. Wept time and time again. But you don’t care enough to stop. Not enough to get help. Now you’re losing me. I’m turning my back on you.
I miss the man you used to be. Once said you’d never change for a woman. Look at you now. Blinded by love.
You built a strong foundation then took it all away. Never there for me fifteen and on. He’s a big boy mama says. One day he’ll see the light.
A little girl needs her daddy. To love her with manly charm. To soothe her when she’s hurt. And keep her safe from harm.
You used to be my hero. Knight in shining armor. Spin me round and round in circles. Like the good old days. I will always be your little girl
Walk a little straighter, Daddy
You’re swayin’ side to side
It’s not just me who’s watching
You’ve caught everybody’s eye
You’re trippin’ and a stumblin’
And even though I’ve turned eighteen
Walk a little straighter, Daddy
You’re still leading me
I miss who you were. Despise who you’ve become. A stranger in your own body. A man I do not know. I don’t respect the choices you’ve made. I hope that booze is worth it.
Glad to be off at college. Away from the mess. Yet her psycho, harassing phone calls. Leave permanent scars on young flesh. You’re raising seven kids on one income
Tell me, are you happy?
Does it ever tear you up at night?
Do you ever think of me and what could have been?
Are you still proud of the woman I’ve become?
Will you be there to walk me down the aisle?
To hold your first grandchild?
Tell me, is it worth it?
Alcohol stole him from me. Right out from under my feet. Constantly walking on eggshells. Afraid one may crack.
Inside me lives A core of fear and emptiness. Desperate for love and attention. Anxious for approval. An utter suffocation. Slowly caving in.
Is it just my meticulous nature? Should I cut him some slack? Sad truth of it all. When you come crying to me after a failed marriage I can say, “I told you so”. Yet I know I will forgive you.. No matter how horribly you’ve treated me for years. Because you’re still my daddy. And nothing will change that. I won’t resent you for all you’ve wronged me
I’m too strong for that.
Fathers should have an unwritten rule. To nurture their daughters. A woman needs her daddy. Just to be aware. He’ll always be there for her. Through both the happy and the sad. A special bond none other can match. Affecting their relationships with men forever on.
Thinking about all that Dad has missed in my life over the years brings tears to my eyes. You’ve pushed me from your life. My guiding light diffused
Although I can’t make sense of this now. Maybe one day I will. After all is said and done.
If only I could just not care. If only it didn’t hurt so much. If only I could say that you don’t matter. If only one time you’d listen. If only I could articulate what you’ve put me through.
As a father you have failed. As a father you were never there. As a father you never held me. As a father you never cared.
How do you live with yourself? You are foolish beyond measure. A family torn apart.
Oh the struggles make me stronger. The disappointments make me wise. Maybe a blessing in disguise?
This is how your daughter will remember you forever on. It’s written on my heart. Not for the good but the bad. Not how I’d want to leave my legacy.
Addiction runs in families. Terrified it will become me. Determined not to be like that. No self-fulfilling prophecy. I will not let this define me. I will not become my father.
I have one last thing to say Dad. One little piece of advice. Hurry, before it’s too late. Hurry, before I’m gone. Before you’ve lost me forever.
It’s time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change. A sense of serenity is born of acceptance.
With Father’s Day fast approaching, I’m missing him more than the usual.